Tuesday, June 24, 2014


I expected to sit down and eat a bowl of cereal while enjoying and reading some blogs that I missed during my week where there was absolutely no ounce of a single wave of Internet.

But alas blogger is messed up and it's only showing one new blog post no matter how many times I click view more. So instead I'm taking this time to say things like yes I'm still here, no I didn't forget, yes I'll start posting more, etc., etc., etc.

On my way up to the mountains a week ago from this Saturday, it dawned on me that you all would probably like to know that I wasn't going to be around for the coming week. It was quite the inopportune time considering I had no means to post such a post. So here's my formal sorry:


Also, this past week as I was coming down the mountains I received word that a very very very dear friend of mine passed away. It was a rough weekend and I'm still sorting through thoughts and feelings and tears, but things are coming around.

I was very sad and irritated and hurting the first two days, but ironically I keep thinking she's still here. I think I'm healing way too fast in some ways. I think I'm going to wake up at 2 in the morning a month from now and realize that she really is gone. It's like things haven't sunk in yet.

Anyways, things may be slow for a week or two as I try to process all this shit that's happening.

For now, have a fabulous day.


  1. I am sorry for you loss. I know about grieving, and I know everyone does in a different way. I know it can be hard and painful and confusing... But I know you (or feel like I do because I've been anonymously reading your blog for so long), and I know you're strong. You understand things better than a lot others do, and you're an amazing person. I feel like I'm rambling. I just want you to know that you are amazing. You are strong. You are so wonderful.

    1. Thank you so much. I'm slowly coming back to doing normal things in life and trying to move on. Your comment means a good deal to me. Thank you for reading.

  2. I'm deeply sorry to hear about your friend. I hope you find strength, and am here if you need to vent...

    1. Thank you for your kind words and I'll definitely be taking you up on your offer about venting when the time arises. A lot has changed in a week and I feel like I'm finally coming to terms with the reality in most aspects, although I still find times where I think she's still here. Thank you once again.